Our family's transition from software to farming was hard. The work was hard. The cut in pay was hard. The always-something-to-do-no-time-to-sit-down was hard. The things people said to us about such an unusual lifestyle change was hard. Not many people understood what we were doing, why we were doing it, or how hard it was to do and that in itself was hard. We lost “friends.” People who I had loved and trusted didn't want to talk to us anymore because our income had changed. For someone as social as me, that was devastating. I felt so isolated and alone. Every door seemed to be shutting and nothing was opening up for us. All this door-shutting went on for years. It felt like there was no end in sight, like things would never get better. I wondered where God was in all this or if maybe He had turned his back on us too. My soul felt empty and dejected.
Then in the middle of all that darkness, He sent the best blessing we could have ever asked for:
I didn't announce on my blog that she was coming, but she is here now. And with her arrival it is as if God has said “I am here and I have always been here. I do love you and I will withhold no good thing from you. But when you look for the good things I give you, don't look for money or things or even friends. Look for Me.”
And with that, He has poured mercy and grace out onto our family. He is using this brand new little person to teach us new lessons about the essence of who He is. Although nothing else has changed, everything is right with our world again.
Please pray for us as we raise this precious little one – and all our children – for God's glory.